Almost Lunch
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 11:50:39 AM
The coffee thing has continued. It's been about 11 days now. My sleep schedule was pretty crazy, but I think it's settled into something resembling normal once again. My visits to the gym have continued, and I've added cardio. My weight generally still seems to be trending downward.
Still, it's been a bit of strange week. Someone I feel I've gotten pretty close to and was in a lot of contact with throughout the day withdrew. It's leaving an uncomfortable void that I'm trying to ignore. I'm looking for distractions. I'm trying to sort through my own thoughts and where I am in life, and make sure I'm doing okay as an individual. I am more likely to be a good friend (and eventually partner to whoever that may be) if I've got myself relatively well ironed out.
And for the most part I'm pretty confident in where I am. I felt a bit of a dependency develop on someone else, and that being taken away was jolting, but I don't know that I'm all that worse off. I've had some emotions go up and down and all around and confuse me and at times it has been quite unpleasant. But I'm still pretty much rational and secure and continuing my life as per usual.
It has been a distraction though... from work especially. Work load is a little light, so I'm left to find other things to do and think about, and that has occupied my mind a lot. Trying to cut that bad habit out. Now is a really good time to focus on work and do really well. For multiple reasons I'm merely hinting at now. I'm sure I could have some more thoughts and share them here, but instead you just get this glimpse while I wander off and find food.